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Sometimes it feels horrible to be 24 and accomplished nothing.
Its not that I do not hear what you are saying or trying to show me that with a few change of habits life would be better.
It is a sin to shop, sleep a little more and not want to squeeze with a million others when I am me.
Sometimes I hate that I have no will to want to change things. Sometimes I wish God can change everything with a wave of his hands. Sometimes I pray I have the strength to just wake up the next day for work. Sometimes I wish I have the strength to step into the oncoming traffic just so I don’t frigging see the problems anymore. Sometimes I wish I was more like the ideal daughter that mum would like to have. Sometimes I remind myself to be thankful for all the things I already have and the excesses even. Sometimes I am just really tired trying to be ambitious and working hard, trying to have a dream so I feel motivated to make a change. Sometimes it is so much easier so say change this, do this or that and everything will be straightened out.
and thank you for saying that last sentence. 
haha wth. i know what little faith u have.
being practical vs. dreaming for 2. not saying being practical is wrong because it never is.
maybe I just like to hear, I’ll make sure u’ll nv worry abt those things, just so i’d feel a little more motivated to try harder so the person won’t have to work too hard to take away most of my burdens.
I know it is not fantastic to be lazy and yet still covet material comfort because that would mean I’m a liability and a bum and not being realistic. Ha.
